Before I met Jesse, I did not think I would ever get married. I was so disillusioned with men that I approached every relationship with a great deal of cynicism. I did not easily trust, and I got so tired of hearing premature utterances of "I love you" from men who were really just insecure that I just felt the whole thing was a crock.
Before I met Jesse, I was usually the only one who understood why I found certain things so funny. If I tried to explain why something was funny, people looked at me like I was a little weird, which was probably true. There were a lot less belly laughs before I met him than after I met him.
Before I met Jesse, I got nervous driving in unfamiliar places, especially big cities. Today, I think nothing of driving into Manhattan, but before I met Jesse, I would have been a nervous wreck. I also had never lived in a major city and had only been living outside of (and a mere 10 minutes from) my parents' house for a short time. I had never traveled outside of the United States and did not even have a passport. I had not been on an airplane in about 8 years.